Self-realization "Hollywood is not America"

I'm going on this journey to self-discovery. It's a little corny, oh well. I've come to a conclusion, or a realization maybe, that I need to really try to understand who I am this summer. It's a little my fault. Ok, I have to admit this, I'm obsessed with the Hollywood culture. I don't want to be any of those women, I don't want to be an actress or a singer. I just want to write. But I'm fascinated and constant on these gossip blogs catching up on the latest news. And I've done this so much over the past few years, that I've been forgetting who I am and concentrating on myself, that I've been living through these people I don't know.

And that's sad. It's really pathetic. I need to stop. I'm majoring in freelance/journalism, but I want to dabble in creative writing. I'd like to publish a book of short stories, only because I'm not sure how I'd be able to write a novel. I learned about flash fiction in school, and I'd like to write more of those types of stories.

I'd like to get back to writing poetry. Something I've done since I was 12 years old. And it's going to be a challenge to try to start over, and I know that my addiction to pop culture will continue to linger a little bit longer, but I'm going to start to stop. For a while I wanted to be an entertainment writer, which I could still see myself doing. Not so much the gossiping and making fun of them, that's not my thing, but I think that the whole entertainment frenzy of following celebrities 24/7 has gotten to far, and everything needs to cool down.

I may write more later, but I have to pick up my younger brother from school. He wants to write with me. Well, according to him, he wants to come up with the ideas, and I write them down. He's cute, maybe we'll try something out.

By the way, there's this song "Hollywood's Not America" it's by Ferras. It's a great song, you guys should buy it on iTunes.

-Suzy